PREFACE: "Manifesting Consciousness" - An Autobiography of an Awakening
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Our preface is a brief synopsis of Our Book; Manifesting Consciousness
Sub-titled; A Personal Journey Through The Awakening Process.

Manifesting Consciousness is one man's incredible real life journey towards happiness. Follow him as he courageously confronts his fears and insecurities, finally emerging victorious over his inner demons. This heart-wrenching story truly celebrates the power of the human spirit while demonstrating that we each hold the keys to our own salvation. Through self-awareness he transcends the nightmarish deceptions of the ego making it possible for him to experience life, as "Heaven on Earth".


...What follows is a personal account of how consciousness appeared in my life and how it has changed my perception of the world. I felt compelled to reach for a pen and share my story to continue my own passage towards enlightenment. I offer it as an example to compare, validate, argue, refute, relate to, or glean insight from.

Ultimately, awakening is a solo journey. No other individual can do the work for us or give us the secret location of the elusive happiness we all seek. Only through searching deep within ourselves can we find the answers for our own salvation. However, the significant fact that there are no new experiences, unique thoughts, or exclusive feelings, has come to light during my journey. The circumstances and details of our lives can differ but at our core we are the same. As I tell my story, it may be discovered that the human race shares the same pain, stress, anxiety, heartbreak, joy, and confusion. Walking in my footsteps, you may connect to some of the ways in which you and I are similar, leading to validation for the way you feel about your own life.

Nothing in our physical world is real. My thoughts, experiences, and possessions, have nothing to do with who I really am. I am foremost a spiritual being who is having a physical experience. Most of what I was taught during my early years was not much more than personal opinion. Each individual has their own path, so the challenge is to become aware of "who" you really are so that you can consciously walk that path and not blindly follow the direction others have placed before you. In the end, the only thing we take with us is the understanding that comes from the life we have lived.

For thirty years I obligingly did what the ego and our society required of me, bringing me mostly misery, pain, isolation, and disappointment. Just at the point of falling into complete ruin and utter despair, I realized there must be a considerable flaw in my well-wrought plan. I was doing everything necessary to be a responsible, productive person and believed it would eventually bring me the peace and joy I so desperately desired, but any semblance of happiness had continued to elude me.

My first marriage was approaching the nine year mark. I had a beautiful, three-year-old son. I was quickly building equity with a fifteen-year mortgage on our first home. I had a 401k-retirement plan. I owned my own remodeling business and was working towards real estate investment. My credit rating was golden, and I believed that I had all the answers for success. I felt sure that if I stuck to my plan, all my dreams would come true. There was just one tiny problem, I HATED MY LIFE!! And worse than that was the nagging realization that I felt trapped in a situation I had put so much time and effort into that I couldn't bare the thought of changing it.

When I was a child, I had a premonition that by the age of thirty I would be wildly successful, which to my young mind meant, I would become a millionaire. The experience was so impactful that it remains vivid in my memory to this day. I was determined from that tender age to accomplish that dream, because something in that version of my future left me looking happy and content.

I didn't have a million dollars in the bank by my thirtieth birthday, nor was I even close, but I did feel I was headed in the right direction and was well on my way toward realizing the "American Dream". Considering the excellent progress I had made, I wondered why I wasn't happy or at least somewhat satisfied with my present achievements. I'd been doing everything I could to produce a happy life, but to no avail. What I was experiencing was intense inner turmoil that I couldn't explain, but as I celebrated my thirtieth birthday the answers to my questions would begin to reveal themselves. I didn't know it yet, but I was about to receive the best gift of my adult life and it had nothing to do with money or material goods.

Some years after that fateful day, my life held little resemblance to the life I had back then. My golden credit was shot. My marriage had ended. I was allowed no contact with my only child. My 401K, was depleted. I had no savings. I was residing in my second wife's ex-husband's house. I owed over forty thousand dollars in unpaid child support, which resulted in the suspension of my driver's license. I'd accrued thousands of dollars in credit card dept. I had few possessions. I'd had minimal contact with extended family members, and in most cases the world would have seen my life as a complete failure, or at the very least a cautionary tale. In truth, I would have agreed with this assessment if I hadn't been the one living the story.

Since then I have come to see how these circumstances have been perfect for my spiritual growth. By taking responsibility for all of my unconscious, ego-driven choices, I empowered myself to make the changes that would result in greater freedom from the chains that keep the human heart bound to resistance and misery. Now, at forty-six years of age, my life continues to blossom as I embrace each fresh emergence of truth, broadening my understanding of why we are compelled to behave the way we do. With deeper self-awareness, I am left feeling happy and at peace for the majority of the time. The pain, misery, and isolation I once felt, has virtually vanished allowing the space for a new state of being to surface.

I am a common man with ordinary struggles and challenges, who is going through an extraordinary transformation! Emerging consciousness has helped me to see, understand, and experience everything in a new light, causing my life to take unpredicted turns and leading to controversial choices that have struck great fear into the hearts of the unconscious. However, I don't see these new choices as being better or worse than the one's I used to make, just different and more aligned with spirit. In the chapters that lie ahead I detail those pivotal, life-altering moments, along with the insights and challenges that accompanied them.

I want to make it clear, that this is not a "how-to manual" or a "guide book" for spiritual students. It is merely a personal account of awakening as it has unfolded in my own life. The insights and opinions expressed in this book come from my personal experience and perceptions. I have no interest in convincing anyone of anything nor do I expect anyone to share my understandings. Each of us has our own perfect path to follow and only "God" knows what that will be.

Throughout, I spoke to reflect the relative mindset I had when a particular event took place. In other words, I tried to accurately tell the story from what I understood to be true at the time in order to show how one's life can be turned upside down as his perceptions change. I strive to show how my experience of life was altered as consciousness continued to increase and I became clearer.

Ultimately, mine is a love story, as I began to see a different man in the mirror. Instead of the broken, damaged, unworthy individual I thought I was, a new man was reflected back to me. By clearing away the illusions and misconceptions I had about myself, I exposed the beautiful, loving, confident, compassionate, accepting person who had been there all along.

Inside every human there is an enlightened being waiting to be discovered, which has merely been covered over by attaching to unhealthy thoughts created by social conditioning and the construct of the ego. As we break through this superficial illusory layer, we reconnect with our true spiritual selves, leaving us free to experience our lives here on Earth as a heavenly paradise filled with love and beauty, rather than the hellish nightmare so many of us trudge through on a daily basis. This is the reality the ego has blinded us to, and this reality is accessible to everyone no matter what their circumstances may suggest. Mankind's search for happiness is intrinsic to our nature, and the experience of "Heaven on Earth" is not only possible, it is our God given right as human beings.

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"Gloria in excelsis Deo"

"I believe that we are solely responsible for our choices, and we have to accept the consequences of every deed, word, and thought throughout our lifetime. "
Elisabeth Kubler-Ross

"The price of the democratic way of life is a growing appreciation of people's differences, not merely as tolerable, but as the essence of a rich and rewarding human experience."
Jerome Nathanson

"An individual who breaks a law that conscience tells him is unjust, and who willingly accepts the penalty of imprisonment in order to arouse the conscience of the community over its injustice, is in reality expressing the highest respect for the law."
Martin Luther King JR.

The Goal of this Website:

The Awakening Workshop's primary purpose is to help others transform their experience of life into one that is authentic and joyous by providing resources and personal examples to assist in becoming
self-realized and conscious of reality.

The teachings of:

David R Hawkins
Byron Katie
Eckhart Tolle
Taylor Hartman
have been fundamental in guiding us on the path towards enlightenment.

The culmination of everything we have experienced and learned
has led us to write our own book titled:
Manifesting Consciousness

A Personal Journey Through The Awakening Process

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In sharing our experiences, along with the challenges and pitfalls that accompanied them,
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Facing one's fears, insecurities, and suppressed pain, is a monumental undertaking,
but with help and guidance,
you will discover that no challenge is to difficult to handle and no obstacle is to high to climb.


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